A HOT LESSON
Written By: Esther Ibukunoluwa Oyekunle
What a day!
We were all outside, waiting to know whose turn was next.
A few minutes later, one of the lecturers came and called the next name
My heart skipped a beat.
Hearing my name sent shivers down my spine. I decided to comport myself and hide all that was wrong behind a bold face.
I had counselled my course mates not to be scared earlier. I couldn’t afford to appear troubled before them. So I pretended that all was fine with me, and that I’d ‘kill’ the defence.
My supervisor and some of my lecturers had been impressed by my work earlier and I knew success was mine but…
I walked into the defence room and lo and behold, everything I had prepared to say flew out of my head like birds!
I was asked to say something, but I couldn’t. I was as blank as an empty bottle!
This was a panel that consisted of all my lecturers, with whom I have very good rapport. But I stood there dumb!
A few questions were asked but I could barely respond. I was shy and could not look into their faces!
That notwithstanding, I believe that they were impressed with my work.
After the defence, I decided to take a thirty minute walk.
In my sadness, I asked God how I could face over 50 people in my hostel or class to talk confidently but could not even face four lecturers who I knew very closely. As I pondered on this, I got an answer:
I was confident in the presence of my hostel mates because I felt they were the ones that needed knowledge, and so they needed to listen to me. I believed God placed me in that position as their spiritual mentor and so, I was good at carrying out my assignment.
On the other hand, I felt my lecturers were better than me. I felt they had a mastery of “Language”, my research focus, more than I do, so I lost confidence in myself.
I learnt from that experience not to think so highly of anyone such that I begin to tremble and forget my worth. No one is far above me except God. It’s important that I understand my worth and not allow anyone, anything or any situation overwhelm me.
To you friends, be you!
Don’t be moved by anyone or any situation.
Stand tall with your shoulders held up high.
Shake off stage fright and it’s siblings.
Only you can shut you up!