MEET BRENDA:ON THE PERSONAL DEVOTION OF A CHRISTIAN.
By: Lizzy Oyebola Yakubu
My name is Brenda.
I smacked myself many times. My personal devotion altar had actually gone cold! And I was at the losing end. I had no joy, no peace, no coherence, no love- the sparks I had felt the day I said yes to the Lord were dead! I was only struggling and pushing it!
At the fourth to fifth snooze, I would suddenly remember my resolution. How I had promised to give the Lord the focal point of my life and not the spare, not the crumbs. I would jump up with a start to check my phone.
Tucking my phone in my bag I would be out to catch the next bike. On the bike, I would try severally to remember what I had listened to from the part of the sermon.
That struggle continued for a while until the day I became angry!
The temptations I wouldn’t easily give in to before became an easy trap! Any small thing, I would find myself lying!
Me? Sister Brenda, lying? Ah!
I found myself comparing myself with others and getting really moody.
I would smile at people who offend me but in my heart, I found myself hating them!
I had no immunity against temptation again! I had heartbreaks; I lost some good friends (Yeah, I pushed them all away when they all seemed too righteous but I was the one who had become too alien!); I had issues with my parents and siblings and relatives, just everyone and I was wasting my money; I could eat a five litre bowl of food per day and see so many episodes of movies till I sleep off on top of my laptop after!
One day, all these things weighed me down and I wept.
‘Lord I know. I know where all these things are coming from. You said I should pray so I shouldn’t faint. You did. You did. Of course it’s in prayers a Christian develops immunity against sin, Satan, sicknesses, attacks and evils. It’s in prayers a Christian becomes more like Christ. I am sorry Lord. For being so proud to think I could survive without You, I am sorry Lord’
I wept so bitterly that day. I felt like an caught adulterous woman who had come back home to beg her husband. I wept till I was satisfied that I had wept! Haha. It wasn’t funny. After crying, I had a warm bath and brought out by dusty prayer notes and Bible.
I came up with a plan and went on my knees, presenting it to the Lord and asking Him to bless the plan and make it work.
He did bless it!
I am now a glowing Christian!
Because I feed well on the Heavenly supplies provided me during my constant, continuous personal fellowship with God, I am healthy!
1. Why can’t I pray in the early mornings and late nights?
2. Who is my greatest enemy?: It’s me! I want to satisfy me! I want to please me! I want me to rest! I cannot kill me! I cannot stress me! I don’t want me to fall sick! I me, I me, I me, I me!!
3. How do I deal with me? That is my own strategy which I will share with you now.
First, I make sure nothing enters my stomach again after 8pm so I would feel light the next morning.
Have you seen why you doze up sometimes while using a lantern or your small phone torch? The brain isn’t fully excited well! Personally, I would fill my space with light!
With my ears plugged, I would do a few press-ups or sit-ups to further ensure that I am awake.
The bathroom would be my next port of call. By then, the song I had listened to would be on top of my tongue. After pouring cold water- cold, on myself, I would come out shivering like a wet puppy.
By the time I sit at my prayer table, I would fire on without any restriction! And if I feel sleepy again, I would chew some healthy gums. I bought a pack and placed on my table.
After chewing off the sweetness of the gum, I would spew it into the bin and start to walk to and fro my room, calling God beautiful Names!
Then, I would pray and study! I would make requests and hear God speak. I would learn from God and write the lessons down in my notes.
Things started coming back into place. I would get early to the bus park to wait for the staff bus; I would be alert and quickened in my heart all through the day; I would laugh when temptation comes and push it away with the tip of my finger; I smile more often; I see revelations and hear God more!
All because I dealt with ‘me’ in order to speak to Him!
Show me a Christian without discipline and I will show you a vulnerable person for he is a timebomb waiting to explode!
Galatians 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
Feed your spirit and your flesh will sleep off.
Till I come your way again with another episode of ‘Meet Brenda’, stay awake in your spirit!
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